Astral Hands

I laid resting on the bed this morning and wanted to aim towards an obe. I felt the dizziness and lightness coming. I focused on floating and raising out. I started to 'see' through my eyelids with my astral eyes. I attempted to raise my astral arms up in hopes of my guide lifting me up and out. While doing this, I saw my arms and hands, but only saw their energy signatures. They were light pure light, and I moved them around and followed their movement. It was incredibly cool to experience this, something new every time. I called for my guide but I didn't think she was coming...maybe she was busy ..hehehe A saw a vision before me, a skyline full of clouds with a lake, except I was looking down into it. It was a view that was breath-taking and left me in awe, I wanted to go there! I mentally forced myself there as if I needed it like air. I swarmed through this place incredibly happy and free. I wasn't alone, I felt there were more like me there, but I didn't see anyone. I felt no sense of fear. I asked to see my soul mate. I was told from a friend a few weeks ago that if you want to meet your soul mate, ask for them in the astral. So I did. Nothing happened and I thought perhaps they were not in the astral like I was. So I decided to go to the next thing, how about some astral sex? hehehe I'll leave it at that :-)

Flying!

This morning, I wanted to venture out of body before it was time to wake. My astral eyes opened and I saw a window before me, filled with beautiful white clouds passing quickly.
This vision was like an invitation for me, like a bait to the fish. I accepted the invitation and repeated to myself 'I want to fly in the clouds.' I felt and saw my mind-split, and slowly moved out
towards this grand window. As I flew/floated through it, my vision was dimmed and unfocused. I asked for clarity and to be able to see ahead of me. The place I was at was beautiful, I was flying
freely through the lit sky. A feeling of bliss came over me, I was free and happy. I recalled how I wished that everyone was able to experience this, how sad that only a few can do this. There is no fear, only love and joy.
I did notice that I was not alone, there were others there. I do remember seeing large black eyes. This made me uncomfortable
and I decided to return back, I thought of my body and I felt the return happen.

Recovery!

My son got up when I headed back for the bedroom last night, it was late, about 12AM. He wasn't well. Horrible stomach cramps with Diarrhea, poor guy (he's 9). I worried whether or not to take him to the ER. His pain was intense and I feared it may be serious. He finally settles down in my bed and ended up sleeping with me.
A couple of hours after we feel asleep, I started to AP. An illumination appeared at my third eye point, I 'encouraged' it to increase. I then slowly slid out of my body to the left and near or on my son. I prayed and imagined light and love around him so that he would heal. I repeatd affirmations of love and healing and imagined light swirling around his/my astral body.
The next morning, he awoke feeling as good as new. I told him I was praying for him and told him what I said. He said, 'Oh yeah, I remember that in my dream.'

Bed Bugs

Well...I went to bed about an hour ago and got up because of all the orbs in my bedroom! :-P
I have to laugh at myself over this. I'm talking out loud in my room, first a prayer to God to help my son heal (his stomach hurts somethin awful). Then I was speaking to a friend of mine who I believe has passed. I turned over to go to sleep when I stared at wall to see a framed illuminated orb. It was strange to see, a perfect sphere with four corners around it. This lasted about a second and more pronounced than I am used to.
I turned my attention upward and said, 'It's okay, but I need to get ready to go to sleep, perhaps tomorrow during the day?'
A flash of gold appeared. like a beautiful star. Then a huge white bubble like orb manifested as I peered at it for a couple of seconds. Of course, I remained calm, but some adrenalin released in me. I'm only human right?
My first thought was, 'this is new'. I see this experience as a step forward, to condition myself for what is to come. Many more sparks occurred before this in the room, some gold, some white.
It's one thing to see this in your peripheral vision, but yet another to lock onto it with your naked eyes.

An OBE and Dreams

I took a nap finally this morning, in hopes to get away and go on
a joy ride in the astral. I have a clock radio that was set and going
off every 10 minutes. This is a great way for me to induce them. I felt myself sliding out to one side but not really getting anywhere.
I finally then lifted upward, my vision was blackened. I asked my spirit guide 'Diane' to assist me. I was immediately swept away. Within seconds my non-existent sight returned and I was in the sun filled clouds looking down, this place was beautiful I thought!
I was guided to a place in the clouds, we quickly were standing or
placed in front of a building surrounded by wonderful calm colors. I
noticed large tile everywhere, on the ground and on the doors and some
walls. It was a pale metallic pink background with purple lotus flowers
in the center. It felt as if it were an ancient design. I walked into
the hall of the large castle like building. I turned around and a young
lady was walking around the corner. I went to ask her, 'where do I go?'
See pointed down the corridor to a door. She said 'go to where they are
serving shrimp.' I think I gave her an awkward expression and thought
'well okay' and walked through the door. This place was drab and old and
very very familiar, I was there before, many times. I walked down the
stairs and peeked in. There were people sitting and all eating
watermelon. I didn't see any 'shrimp' so I left. I walked an uphill
pathway towards a door at the top, it was a bit difficult getting there.
It was then I knew someone was behind me, holding me back. I tried my
best to pass through the door but failed. I then fell into lucid
dreaming and regular dreams.
I'll list them just to log them, they were in great detail and I hope
they never come true.
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This dream was a walk through... narrative dream. I was given times and
common nouns. I was at a renowned hospital. There was a great tragedy
there, many died, and I was told a serial
killer works there. The police do not know who this killer is and know
that he will strike again soon. His name starts with an F and he is
centering his next hit through the hospital meals (salads to be
exact). Yes, I know, very strange indeed!
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This one was brief and bothersome. I was lodged inside an aircrafts
engine. I watched it take off and saw the ground become farther and
farther away. I tried to hold on as tightly as I could, I thought
I would fall out of the damn thing. It was noisy in there and I worried
that something was terribly wrong. The metal near the entrance of the
engine began to heat up and almost rot away, as if acid were
placed there, deteriorating it. The metal fell off causing us to slowly
descend back down. The place we ended up was either near a railroad or a
street. People on the ground saw the end event take place.
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Hopefully these were just my usual strange dreams and they stay that way.

An Interesting Day

I want to share my experiences I had today with you, I found it entertaining as well as unique. I sat down to watch the news at 12:30, my daughter was playing in her room. I shut the T.V. off so I could enjoy the silence and think of the plans for the day. Just moments later, I heard the side door slam shut. I had locked the door when I came in with my daughter from school, I jumped thinking the husband came home early for some reason or someone got a hold of our house keys. I cautiously walked to the side door to find it still locked with no one around. Now I know what my door sounds like being slammed shut, I have to hear it a dozen times a day with kids running in and out. Just another 'event' to write down in the books I guess. An hour later, I sat in the kitchen drinking tea with a slice of pumpkin cake I made. As I finished, I was overwhelmed with nausea and ran to the bathroom to vomit, I never did, but I was sick as a dog for a few minutes, my heart rate pounding away and a bit scared/concerned to what was happening. The feeling passed and I was completely fine moments later (not pregnant folks).
Later at 6pm, I went to the gym. I went into what they call the Cinema room where they play a loud movie on a big screen while you workout. I was in the back of the room on the elliptical and two others in front on the treadmill. I was watching this boring movie and decided to pass the time with suggestive comments. The man in front was running fast on the treadmill, I spoke softly out loud (no one heard me, I could barely hear myself). I told the man that he was done running, to turn the machine down and walk. Would you know, within 15 seconds he did? I thought, hmmm, let me try again. The lady two machines over was walking. I said in a soft whisper, 'go faster, you're going too slow, speed it up, speed it up...'. And again, within 15-20 seconds she tabbed the speed button up and doubled it. I started to laugh, this was way too much fun. I watched the movie for a while and thought, 'well, one more won't hurt'. I stared at the man again who was walking. I softly said,' let's go, it's time to go, you got things to do tonight, go, go, go'. I meant for him to leave, instead I think I told him to go run. Seconds later, he raised his speed up to run. I had to laugh again. I must say this was the best workout in a long time, I have to return and try this again!

Sacral Vibration and Vision

As I was relaxed with my eyes closed laying down, I viewed this time as part of my meditation and listened to the soft humming within my mind. Moments later, the back of my eyes lids seemed to be expanding as well as getting brighter. A golden glow started to illuminate to my right. I focused my eyes on this glow and repeated the thoughts, 'grow, increase by 10 fold'. Immediately it followed my command through inner strength and suggestion and was 10x was it first was. The buzzing was intense but calming as I knew it was all me. The viewing area behind my eyelids expanded. In there was a vast arena or inner space that I could see, but it contained no pictures or objects. Something was starting to come through, a blurry vision. I asked the divine and my spirit guide to show me what this was before me. A geometric design appeared very clear, I felt as if I could touch it and I wanted to touch it. The designs looked similair to the Kundalini-Awakening-Systems home page which is triangular, but these were wheels of squares, there different levels of them that were spinning. I remember thinking that this was incredibly cool and I wasn't even asleep. My bottom/ sacral area began to vibrate, like I was being 'plugged' in. My sexual desires kicked in quickly and I bounced them back so that I could transform this sexual energy to my visions that I was having, it worked.
The 3-layered geometric design was spinning fast and beyond the design was a golden map of sorts. It seemed to be a place or location of something. I couldn't see it in detail as the geo designs were mostly in the way. I then heard a womans voice start to narrate what I was seeing. The buzzing in my head was loud so her words were muffled. I remember her saying 'And this is the Sacral...', I told her I could not understand her, and I began to slip out of body slowly through the beautifully spinning geometric design. It didn't hurt, it was like passing through a gentle electro wave of static, very mild. I saw the map more clearly but it didn't make sense to me. What was it and why was I being shown this? I noticed my Sacral area was vibrating more intensely. The vision was gone, what was left was a vibrating body. If I didn't know better, I would of thought it was an earthquake! :-)

Summer of 1986

~ The Awakening
Summer 1986

My sleep was peaceful and cozy in my warm bed. I felt as if I was woken up by a startle. My bed was moving! I didn’t know what to do. So I stayed still as I was left in fear and confusion. My bed moved again! It now started to lift off the ground. You can image the terror I was going through.
I was now approaching the ceiling, balancing myself on the bed. I began to cry and scream. I didn’t know how long I would be able to stay on this haunted bed. I laid back down un fear I would be crushed to death between the bed and the ceiling. The bed began to tilt to the left. I grabbed a hold of the sheets with both hands as I was screaming for someone to come help me. The bed was now upside down and I was staring at my bedroom floor, amazingly still attached to the bed. No one could hear my screams, the panic was flooding my mind. What was happening? Was the house possessed or haunted? The bed made its full circle in mid-air. It then plummeted to the floor. I sat up in complete horror and utter shock. I managed to get some courage together to stand up so that I could jump off the bed towards my bedroom door in order to make for a quick getaway. I was ready to make the jump despite the terror in my mind. I jump as far as I could, but something or someone grabbed my angle from under the bed. It is like a child’s nightmare here. I looked at what was happening, I screamed when I saw a red hand with long black nails gripping my angle so forcefully. I fought like I never fought before and tugged my leg free of this demon. I ran out the bedroom door screaming.

My eyes opened. I was still in my bed, befuddled and petrified. I sat up not knowing what was what. I didn’t understand what just happened as I my brain was convinced this experience was purely real and not a nightmare. I stood up on my bed and I leaped off of it in fear that someone would indeed grab my ankle again. I ran out of the room just fine, tears were running down my face uncontrollable. My mother asked me what was wrong, and I told her the story. It appeared she blew it off as just a nightmare, but I knew it wasn’t. I thought I had some sort of parallel universe experience, where it actually happened. My brain acted if this was real. All senses were active, and I couldn’t explain the logic of it.

The experience went on and on, almost every night. It was the summer of 1986. I found that these so called ’nightmare’ happened more when I took naps during the day. My nights were filled with MTV and Atari and I didn’t go to bed until 3 or 4 in the morning. A nap was essential for me. The nightmares started as a buzzing noise in my mind, and also like a vortex spinning within it. I felt myself being sucked or pulled into it. I would try to shake my foot or something on my body that would shake this feeling off. After time, I found that shaking my head was the best method. I would actually have to sit up and became fully awake before going back to sleep. It felt as if I were ’resetting’ my mind for the sleep mode. Most of the time mind-split buzzing didn’t return.
Anxiety was building inside me after time. I didn’t want to sleep at night and naps were getting to be a nuisance.
I was only a teenager, I didn’t have any answers to this strange phenomenon. I asked one friend if she had experienced this before, she no clue what I was talking about. She only offered her advise that it was a bad dream or a hallucination.
What does a young person do in this this situation? In today’s society, you would think that there would be a substantial amount of information for us to use as guidance. The majority of doctors and psychologists would point you in another direction for treatment and/or either subscribe medication to suppress this phenomenon when in fact we need to magnify it to its fullest extent. Why isn’t accurate information and research mandated for our spiritual wellness? Is it because we would become more independently conscience and powerful human beings without the aid of a higher governmental power? Who knows why research is being suppressed. Or maybe it isn’t and is in practice, but the knowledge is withheld to the general public. The government did actually have a program called ’Remote Viewing’. They conducted many studies on this where a person would meditate and place themselves, spiritually speaking, in another place and evaluate their surroundings. Reportedly, the program ended. But many people to this day do and continue to remote view. Think about it, we only use 10% of our brains, the other 90% is still waiting to be activated! My god. 90% is pretty much the majority of everything. It’s like telling you that your car is equipped 100% but we are only allowed to use 10% of it. If that were the case, people would be outraged and demand full usage. We should respond the same with our minds. It is an outrage that we walk around like zombies and let our emotion free without restraint. We are a very primitive specie.

Apartment #5

I was in and out of my body several times. This was probably due to the fact I was being woken up by several noises outside the house. I finally left for the last time and found myself in someones hallway, more like an apartment hallway. I glided up to a wooden door and focused on the number on it. It showed apartment number 5. I don't know of anyone who lives in #5, perhaps this will make sense at a later time.

A Quick Trip

I was coming in and out of dreams for my afternoon nap. Trucks, planes and the wind kept me from falling asleep. All this gave me the opportunity for an OBE. I saw the golden light that glows behind my eyelids. I look up as far as I can and this triggers an AP. I mentally screamed 'I am out of body', and rolled my astral self out. I didn't want to float down to the floor again, so I focused upward and began a journey to what seemed like the dark universe with brilliant stars. I was so happy as it has been quite a long time since I had left for a astral trip. I mentally focused on my journey through visual and verbal confirmation. I asked for my spirit guide to take me where they thought was necessary.
Although I could not actually speak, I spoke out with my mind and stated all that I saw. I viewed geometric formations that were very beautiful as well as in continuous movement and changes. The colors within the octagons were orange, red and yellow. As I flew through its membrane and into others, I cheered loudly with excitement, happiness and love.
It ended quickly due to an open window and loud trucks.

Spinning Vortex

As I took a nap at mid day, I repeated affirmations for an AP. Sure enough, I got just that. As I helped along my mind-split, I was aware in my inner vortex that rotated clock-wise. Was this new or something I just became aware of?
I then imagine a large rose over my 7th chakra, opening to its fullest to my ears and then white golden light illuminating from it. I used this as an exit technique.
After a short time, I did exit through the top but not in a way I expected. My body was like a tunnel and I looked up through my head as if I was smaller then my physical body, like being born.
As I was slowly passing through the crown of my head, I heard and felt a vacuum funnel full of what seemed to be water-based inside. It was loud and powerful, as I dove into it. I asked my spirit guide to take me where I needed to go next. My vision was blurred and I asked for clarity and light. I saw I was over a city very high in the sky, like an airplane. I had no idea where I was, but I was sure happy to be there!
I wanted to go somewhere else and I 'pulled' myself through was seemed to be space, but not the one in this realm. I used my treadmill technique and imagined everything around me was the moving past me as I stayed still. It is an intense suggestion on my part that may of thrown me back into myself, I then went into lucid dreaming. I may of spent too much time in the astral, as we only get so long to be there. I'll try these techniques again soon.

Touched

It was a few nights ago when I started to fall asleep. I moved my hands behind my head to get in a comfortable position. My whole body was relaxed and a calming sensation moved all through me. As I laid there alone, I felt a hand softly press against my abdomen. A normal react would be to jump up and panic, but I didn't want to move my energy in that direction. Instead, I kept calm and waited to see what would happen next. The touching continued around my belly button, presses with circular motions. I was amazed at what was happening. I didn't know who or why this was happening, but I just laid there feeling this experience. The touching stopped and immediately after, there was an incredible burst of heated vibration at the base of my tailbone and could be felt on my inner upper thighs.
It ended here and I felt a deep attunement and calm that lasted throughout the night. Some said, this was a part of my Kundalini awakening and rising and to expect more experiences. I continue to work with Kundalini yoga and energy work as well as the Tibetian Rites movements.

Horseman Pentacle

It was 9:00am and I focused on an OBE. I looked up between my brows with eyes closed and said my affirmations to encourage an astral projection.
I started to 'roll out' to my left. I had this sense that I was going to fall out of my bed, but I reminded myself that it was okay, it wouldn't hurt. I slowly moved out of my body and rolled onto the floor facing up. I asked Diane (my spirit guide) to take me somewhere.
I saw this beautiful and very interesting geometric shape before me. Its pink and white spiral shape was there waiting for me and I was asked to move through it. The experience was new to me. I moved slowly through it, like flowing through flower petals in an empty void. I usually move so quickly I don't get to enjoy the journey getting there.
Next was another set of spiral geometric shapes. These were colorful as well, the colors were pastel and feminine. I was told I was going to a negative realm, and to be ready. I wasn't sure what this meant, but I stayed positive.
I was now standing in a forest like setting, as I could only see in front of me. It seemed as if it was a garden for the dead. A ancient graveyard that was surrounded by beautiful trees and flowers and a pond just to the right of a particular grave site I was looking at. There was a small wispy tree that had a stone tomb laying in front of it. It reminded me of a tomb from a knight. It had a picture of a horseman on it.
I concentrated on the name. It said Krycnyak or Krychyk. I knew I wasn't going to remember this name correctly since it was unusual. I was told to go 'read' his book. I was told to remember the 'Horseman Pentacle'. I have no clue what this means, but it will be something I will be investigating online. I kept having to stare a few time at the gravestone since I was forgeting the name. There was a symbol there too under his name, it was an image that was circled, I believe it was suppose to be the actual horseman pentacle. I was waiting for something else to happen, but nothing did. I returned back and I knew I couldn't handle anything else since I was consiously trying to remember all the details so I could write them down.

Thrown Around

I finally had another OBE. Finally! I was beginning to think I was all burnt out.
My mind-split began and I was slowly moved out of my body. I remember not breathing and then forced a breath in. I got snapped into myself quickly. But like a yoyo in slow motion, I was driven right out. This time I saw the ceiling, then I was pulled down thru the floor and down, what seemed to be down thru many floors.
I said, 'what, am I going to hell?' For a moment I was shown the planet Earth and explained somehow that if I fell off the planet, would I also assume I was going to hell too? No. I would eventually hit another planet, right? This way of travel, I would simple arrive at a different dimension. Which I did.
I was in a building of some kind. All I saw were stairs. I floated up the stairs, since I know I had no physical legs and laws are different around here. I went up another flight and found myself in an empty room waiting for someone. I shouted 'I'm here, please help me.' No one showed up. At this point the OBE turned into a dream.

A test ride

I focused hard this morning, saying affirmations and also incorporating body energy. I focused on the base of my spine and visualized on that area. A belt of energy grabbed a hold of this area and I continued deeper into meditation. Many things kept distracting me, an itchy nose, birds chirping, and background noise to Dora the Explorer. So I made a final attempt to relax my muscles, and finally my mind started to do its 'thing'. I tried to envision what a mind-split would actually look like once it got started. I saw two hands criss-crossing/clasping itself. In other words, when the mind-split begins, energies warp past each other and then split apart. I then saw an image of two people. We can never occupy the same space of each other, as our bodies limit us to that. But this mind-split shows me that both my physical and spiritual body can merge into the same space and with that split apart. This is what I was shown, and to me makes sense. Perhaps you will be shown another picture to understand your experience.
It was time, the split was in its prime, like a running engine in a car that's been warmed up. I looked to my right with my physical eyes and the frequency increased 3 fold. I started to listen to mental chatter, I heard a voice I didn't care to hear. I tried to push my astral body up as it was time to travel. I thought of Diane (guide) and said a loud,' Okay!' as if I was ready for her assistance two minutes ago. I was yanked very hard and fast and carried backwards. All I could do was laugh as I passed through many barriers. I told Diane while I was still chuckling and admiring her technique, 'i gotta love ya'. My vision was blurred and I asked for clarity.
I came through one ceiling or wall with many tiles on it. It was white and a thought can to me asking if I could pass through. The tile started to fall at random locations and I slowly passed through that. I was pulled back into my body, and I heard Diane very clearly through my right side of my mind. She was frustrated with her attempt, she said with a sigh, 'A door closed that I want you to see'. I tried to tell her telepathically that I wanted to try again. As I let out air from my lungs with my mouth closed, I closed my throat area and gasped,' hold on!'. This was the only way I could think of to talk to her other than my mind. I didn't know if she was still around to help, so I hurried to get another mind-split going. I felt apprehension from someone, as if they thought I couldn't start this thing up again for myself. Well, I did. It was like starting an old car back up. I thought if everything I could and done in the past. I relaxed my muscles, looked to the right with my eyes, focused on my third eye, focused on the frequency getting stronger, and even remembered the hands clasping. The mind-split was barely turned on, it was a struggle to keep it stayed turned on. It kept loosing its force. I gasped 'wait! I'm coming', as silly as that sounds, I wanted to make sure she didn't go anywhere. In an instant, it felt as if I were jabbed or poked in the abdomen that forced adrenalin to burst within me. This is the feeling you get when you feel a thousand 'butterflies' in your belly. I 'sobered' up or napped out of it fast. I opened my eyes and thought 'damn'. I said sorry to Diane, but I was unsure if maybe Diane ended my challenge knowing I would fail or maybe I was exhausting precious energy for nothing.

The universe and a melting hand

As I began to take my nap, I said my affirmations 'Now I am out of Body'. I repeated this several times. I wanted to double check my reality, I knew I was conscious. I knew my daughter was in the living room watching her morning shows, I could hear her. I knew it was just after 930AM. I knew I was facing my bedroom door.
I confirmed I was still in the here and now and not in sleep land, I was in a meditative state but fully aware. Good, now I was ready for another adventure. I was just hoping my 4 yr old wouldn't run in a beg for a popsicle, like she usually does.
I have been consciously making myself try to sit up, without moving my physical body. I would just imagine myself sit up and imagine in my head the details it would take to actually do all this. I imagined that my head would raise up and I would push myself up with my hands and then my shoulders would move up, etc... I then returned back to my affirmations and I felt the loudness of the mind-split begin to happen.
With my eyes closed, I felt myself moving onto my back, I could of swore my physical body was doing this, but I knew it wasn't. I was slowing turning around to my left side and it felt like I was rubbing against the bed during this slow going spin. I thought myself 'out'. I glided out without being able to see anything. I was free of my body.
I was in some kind of tunnel or warped space and I demanded clarity so I could see something. I saw an image ahead of me, it was bright. I came up to it quickly and calmly, thinking this ability of mine is past phenomenal.
What I saw was incredible and made me want to cry, laugh and cheer. I said outloud in the astral 'Oh, my god!' It was something my physical brain couldn't handle, I know it. I was in the middle of the universe, but not in the physical universe. I felt all the planets as pure energy and this place had a life of its own. Thousands of different sized, colored planets rotated around me. They were not close by any means, but they were all visible in the distance. I reached out in fron tof me to feel what I could. I watched my hand as it started to melt/blow away. Starting from the tips of my fingers, my hand seemed to slowly diminish. It was astonishing to look at. The melting effect lasted until it got my my elbow, then I was done watching. My theory is that I really don't have a body in this realm, it's just an illusion that I can keep only for so long.
I felt as if I need to catch my breath, but I had none. I was pulled to my left, towards a wall of clouds. They seemed infinite, as I passed through them. I came to another dimension almost the same as the last, but not as beautiful. I came immediately back to the original place. I took my last look and thought I wanted to come back soon. The beauty was familiar and addicting, something I could stare at for eternity.