Wednesday, April 05, 2006

The universe and a melting hand

As I began to take my nap, I said my affirmations 'Now I am out of Body'. I repeated this several times. I wanted to double check my reality, I knew I was conscious. I knew my daughter was in the living room watching her morning shows, I could hear her. I knew it was just after 930AM. I knew I was facing my bedroom door.
I confirmed I was still in the here and now and not in sleep land, I was in a meditative state but fully aware. Good, now I was ready for another adventure. I was just hoping my 4 yr old wouldn't run in a beg for a popsicle, like she usually does.
I have been consciously making myself try to sit up, without moving my physical body. I would just imagine myself sit up and imagine in my head the details it would take to actually do all this. I imagined that my head would raise up and I would push myself up with my hands and then my shoulders would move up, etc... I then returned back to my affirmations and I felt the loudness of the mind-split begin to happen.
With my eyes closed, I felt myself moving onto my back, I could of swore my physical body was doing this, but I knew it wasn't. I was slowing turning around to my left side and it felt like I was rubbing against the bed during this slow going spin. I thought myself 'out'. I glided out without being able to see anything. I was free of my body.
I was in some kind of tunnel or warped space and I demanded clarity so I could see something. I saw an image ahead of me, it was bright. I came up to it quickly and calmly, thinking this ability of mine is past phenomenal.
What I saw was incredible and made me want to cry, laugh and cheer. I said outloud in the astral 'Oh, my god!' It was something my physical brain couldn't handle, I know it. I was in the middle of the universe, but not in the physical universe. I felt all the planets as pure energy and this place had a life of its own. Thousands of different sized, colored planets rotated around me. They were not close by any means, but they were all visible in the distance. I reached out in fron tof me to feel what I could. I watched my hand as it started to melt/blow away. Starting from the tips of my fingers, my hand seemed to slowly diminish. It was astonishing to look at. The melting effect lasted until it got my my elbow, then I was done watching. My theory is that I really don't have a body in this realm, it's just an illusion that I can keep only for so long.
I felt as if I need to catch my breath, but I had none. I was pulled to my left, towards a wall of clouds. They seemed infinite, as I passed through them. I came to another dimension almost the same as the last, but not as beautiful. I came immediately back to the original place. I took my last look and thought I wanted to come back soon. The beauty was familiar and addicting, something I could stare at for eternity.

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